WOTOPI -Because if you die, your memories will be beautified ... "There were various things" why I forgave my parents [Asano Masumi x Burning Shell]

The essay "To Kimi who died" (Shogakukan) (Shogakukan), who is active as a voice actor and narrator in the name of "Masumi Asano", was released on June 30.

One day, one day, Asano, who suddenly experienced the death of an important person, he found in a great sadness, and the thoughts of the people who were left in the form of a letter to "Kimi"., As soon as it was published in "Note", it resonated.

It is a blazing shell to talk to Asano -san.The second novel, "This is just a summer" (released on July 29) following the debut work "I couldn't be an adult" (Shinchosha), a dialogue between the fuel shells and Asano -san.We will deliver the situation twice.

Reasons for forgiving parents "there"

Asano Masumi (hereafter, Asa): In fact, my father died suddenly in the middle of writing this essay.He died in 10 days after being hospitalized, but he couldn't meet due to Corona.I died without telling anything.So, even I said, "It's better to tell your loved ones," I couldn't tell my father, so I thought it would be better to do it seriously.

Burning shell (hereinafter, burning shell): Was that so?I'm reading, and I think of someone in myself.I and they are not the same, and various things will happen in the future.So I'm not good at it, but I decided to contact my loved ones, respect, and those who were annoyed.Perhaps because this book was like a letter written with the momentum, "Isn't it still arrived?"

In the essay, the family was also spelled.When I read it, I thought it was terrible, but what kind of thoughts do you have for your parents now?

Asano: As I wrote in the book, my parents have a lot of problems, I use scholarships when I was a student, and I needed 1 million yen in money after becoming a member of society.I had a distance for a while.But if people die, memories are beautified.So, in order to live without regret that I don't forgive my parents, I tell myself after my parents died, saying, "Those people were terrible" and "they were shit".I have to do it.Otherwise, the memories would be more and more beautified, saying, "I really understand each other" or "I really thought about me."

So, I thought, "Isn't it better to accept and accept your parents than to keep your grudge on yourself?""I had a lot of things, but let's forgive these people for my life."When I acted as saying, "I would have been happy with a good daughter," I decided to forgive my old age and for myself.So, you can help your parents financially, take them on a trip, feed delicious food, and give gifts.I think I was a good girl like a "daughter's mirror" until my father died after canceling the insulation (laughs).

Also, I was able to make my parents easier to forgive, and when my father died, I felt like I was aiming for.There was a feeling that "Dad would have been happy."I also liked myself.So it's much easier than hating.

Burning shell: That's amazing.

Asano: When I was a student, when I had no money and did water business, I didn't tell my parents as well as my university friends.Nobody in the world doesn't know that I'm doing that.I didn't want to get rid of my identity, so I was lying to customers, and I was lying to someone all day.But only "Kimi" who died was telling the truth.There were times when I lied to everyone around me, showed me a different self, and sometimes I couldn't understand where I was, but I didn't lose sight of myself by telling him the truth.It's done.He accepted everything and supported me.

So he was like a boat squid in me.While the squid is dropped, I will connect me.And even after breaking up, I remember that memory all the time.At that time, he kept himself without losing his life because he was there.I've always thought, "I'm the benefactor of my life," but I couldn't say that.I went to eat rice regularly ...Even after I became a voice actor, I was really worried about "What are your parents doing?" "Is it okay for money?"

You can forget it, so I want to remember it as it is

Asano: For example, when the sky clears, his mother says something like "I wonder if she made that good weather", but for me, he looks like a "god".I feel lonely ...It's like a trace of a trace paper on his memories, in a sense, a tracing paper on his memories, without wanting to forget him and wants to beautify his memories.I wonder if he would become a completely different person if he repeated the trace.

I really don't like that, "I'm sure he supports me" or "I feel like I can hear some of it now".Then you can forget it, so you want to be as natural as possible.Even if you forget all of his memories, it's not a scary thing because it's already my blood.I thought I would trace my memory and remember him in an unnatural way, such as "I will never forget" or "I will remember it all the time."

Burning shell: I have a very affected woman, but I feel that I'm talking like this, tone, habit, and so on.I don't feed back each time, but maybe that's my blood.

Asano: An enviable story.I want to be that kind of thing that will be the foundation of someone.I want to engrave it in my soul as I remember for many years (laughs).

Speaking of which, in the suffering of writing this essay, another former him has contacted me for the first time in 10 years, saying, "I'm happy to be active as a voice actor."Suddenly, when I look at the icon, there are about three children.At that time, I cried a little, saying, "I'm glad I was alive. Thank you very much."I broke up with him, but I was really happy to be happy with someone else, and I want you to live longer.Of course, I can't spit out such feelings, and I can't tell directly, but I reply with that feeling.

I want to report, "My life was like this."

Burning shell: Maybe everyone is there.At the timing of life, there is a presence, "I guess he or she can only understand himself."I feel like two people in the world, and there are moments that are more important for others than to myself.It may not be easy for such an important existence to disappear in the form of death.

Asano: I'm just going to see what's in my future life and I'm happy.He was one year older, but I became older.I left my office from this year and became freelancer, but that's an action that I decided to actively grasp happiness.I would like to be able to express that "I have been lonely since he died", but to express that "the life you abandoned on the way was like this."。

That's the relationship with the parents I just talked about.In order to support that parents, if you are not successful in your job, you will collapse together.In that sense, I decided to work hard and live as a savage.When I say "I feel like I can meet someday," I feel spiritual, but I feel like I can meet after dying.At that time, I wish I could report, saying, "My life was like this" and "I enjoyed it unexpectedly".

So, try to be independent from the office, get a car license, or act on things that were a little caught in my heart, or those who wanted to challenge but were shy.Since I became freelancer, I have been doing business like a dub board, but I have the feeling that "I will actively go to grab happiness! I will live!"With that kind of feeling, the power to live was improved.Well, it was originally strong, but it became more "stronger" (laughs).

Mr. Burning's work is "tool to go to see the past in the past"

Burning shell: I've always talked to Asano -san several times, but I always thought, but I was very strong.I felt what he thought, what he wanted to see, what Asano wanted to show, and "I'll drag them all."I think both Asano and I live in the "world of pros and cons", but I want to work with the feeling of "I want this person to understand" and "I want to deliver it to this person".I read this book and thought.

Asano: When I read a novel of Burning Shell, 70 % of my brain enter the work world, but the remaining 30 % reminds me of my thoughts and people I met in the past.It will be in a transformer state.Do you read half as if you were looking at your past?"This person understands my feelings" and "I have felt like this."

When I was a student, I had no money and did water business, and there was nothing certain in the future.I felt like I was born with a handicap in my life compared to the people around me.I don't have the money but my parents can't rely on them.This time, "This is just a summer", I read it in a transformer state, remembering "this was something ...".Why do you feel like this?

Burning shell: Isn't there a word of nameless people?But aren't there nameless people?Isn't there a name?The people I have met, those who think it's interesting, those who have done something unpleasant may be those who have no name for someone, but they have a name.He may not be a beautiful person who appears in gravure, and he may not have done something that remains in history, but those who are unforgettable in me.

The time I spent with those people started when I noticed, and when I noticed it was like summer.Isn't it like a life?Perhaps people will disappear in the summer scenery, but I don't think it's boring.Conversely, it's not universal.I wrote about 70 % of that, and I put in as much as I could do about 30 %.

In my case, I often write things like the conversation I'm talking about in a novel.There's nothing like living, sad music when you are sad, playing fun music in fun, and very beautiful lights.For example, I don't think it's myself to say goodbye while Carpenters are flowing.It's a Chinese restaurant where a wide show is flowing, but it's better to start a goodbye, but you can ride.Why were you talking like this?I'm sorry.

Asano: I love not only novels but also essays.There are a lot of memories that I have forgotten about feelings that I can't verbalize in myself, such as "I happened to have such a thing" or "There are people like this."

Burning shell: Conversely, is the essay more universal?"Weekly Shincho", which is serialized now, has about 30 manuscripts.It may be obsessive -compulsive neurosis.I don't want to be chased by weekly serialization.I just wrote it because I was scared (laughs).

Asano: That's amazing.But I can't help but read the work of the shell because I feel like I can meet myself in the past while reading.That's why I think it's a writer that everyone picks up as a tool to see him in the past.I'm jealous.

(Configuration: Utopi editorial department, Saitoko Horiike)